Sad Vibes

I'm, so, fucking depressed, hold up wait up, jk not really. Just because I'm

laughing and smiling, and acting all silly, doesn't mean that it ain't a mask,

I don't want other people to know, how I've been feeling, they wont believe

me I've been deceiving, everybody i know, half of my personality is just for

the show. Fake it till i make it my heart aching just one more shake and,

my whole world will come crumbling down, my emotions are tumbling now.

I don't know how to erase the pain, I don't got nothing to lose I don't got

nothing to gain, its hard to maintain, any happy thoughts, every time

I smile I lie I double-cross, when does it stop, I overstock on negative

thoughts. depression can be many things, and I'm all of em. I'm

trying. But I say I'm tired of trying, I'm barely surviving, most nights I'm crying,

myself to sleep, tears in my eyes I can't even count no sheep. I'm sick of

being and I'm tired of sick. there was a time, when i cared, nothing got me

sad, nothing got me scared. but all the bullshit teared through that emotional

layer, all i have is one prayer, that it will all get better. i can't get past my

past, because there is Nothing for the future, i know I'm gonna end up cold

and alone, i mean it to the bone, when i say this shit. life is hard when you're

expected to be the funny guy in the group, the class clown, and when you

get home, you have nothing left to do but frown. and then you breakdown,

crying and sobbing, like damn, what are you even here for, just a fat ugly

piece of shit that can't even see forward. lying, saying you're fine when you

know you're not. but no one cares, you could end it all and no one would

say a word, that's what you know, but try not to think of, but you can't

because shits tough. all I'm saying is I'm done playin, I'm done faking, I'm

done trying and there's nothing anyone could do to change me.