I Was Ready

ya, for sure, oh yeah totally bro, i was ready to give you my everything, i was

ready to give you my world, i was ready to tell you everything, that you just

needed to hear. i was ready to show you the real me, and not judge the real

you, but instead you threw it all away, now what the fuck am i sposed to do,

and im trying, just to forget, but how could i forget when i let my emotions get

the best of me, but i do what i can, i write my feelings, so i can understand,

why im feeling this way, i cant do it today, not tomorrow and not the next, my

life is an endless void of depression and its eating up, the last of what sole

i have, but why do i care, its not like im gonna be successful,

So pretentious with no potential, i think im going mental, im think thinking too

much, i just need to let go, but no i cant let go, im trying to save whats already

over, im only 13, and i wish i wasn't sober. its already October, the years

almost over, and i got nothing to show for, well, anything nothing new except

these feelings. if you reap what you sew, then i guess i sew a lot, i dont show

a lot, of what im feeling i put on a mask, and try my best to act, and im almost

to my limit, Fuck it turn my mic up a lil bit, im done with this shit, im done with

the sad, im done with the bad, but the only problem is, they aint done with me

i wanna end it, but theres still so much to see, theres no place id rather be

than with you, but i know that wont happen, it makes me sad when, i think

about it. what else, where else, who else is there, that can save me from this

despair. nobody cares, especially about me. like what is there to see in me,

what could i be, I'm just Austin Lee, Hare The flashing lights Inside my head, seem

to cause a glare, but i can only look to the dark and stare It ain't fair, i bear

and do my share, why does shit like this always happen to me why cant i see

what the hell is wrong with me, is it the way look, is it the way i act? why do i

overreact, why am i so packed, with emotion, its causing too much mental

commotion, Where God at? I need to call Him. i was ready to give you my

everything, i was ready to give you my world, i was ready to tell you everything,

that you just needed to hear, i was ready to show you the real me, and not judge

the real you, but instead you threw it all away, now what the fuck am i sposed

to do.