What it feels like

 

 

Im just wandering, if you know what it feels-like

Cos i aint feel-right, what am i supposed to be-like

Must be stumbling, into empty dream nights

After I stumble-in, too many beers to hide

Laughter dies, I crumble at night

Cos it seems i got too much

fuckin going on in my mind

Picking apart every motherfucking thing i can find

Until im confined, no way to find a way out

Even if there was a way out sign,

It would just lead me straight outside

Onto the other side,

of the pavement, my name is engraved in

And i really just aint got time,

Good thing i got raps like I say stock-rhymes?

Cos i feel like in a minute, I may just lop-side

When that happens, i cant see anyone'll stay alongside

And all I'm seeing is me, and the mirror and I

So I say ma farewell, and goodbyes

 

And confrontation seems to be,

All that im good at

Feel like i need ma words, cos i aint nothin to look at

Dont seem to get respect, it aint six foot that im stood at

I know they say to me the harder they fall and that,

But it dont mean all that, when im too small to reach the stacks

Speaking back, try and not retreat-back

But the walls creeping-back

Sleeping pills are back,

but I dont wanna be repeating-that

Its like i'm beating up my heart,

So my heart keeps beating-back

Like it wants its own drums,

The beat keeps stealing that

It looks like its bipolar attend,

So i guess, here we go all over again

 

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And all the mirrors in the house need to go

Cos I don't feel at home in my own home

Nor do I seem to fit in, anywhere I go

Trying to stay above, But I still sink below

I guess I'm hooked, on my headphone audio

Its as if these four walls are not my own

Or am I just complaining til I moan,

It's raining and the sun never shows

There isn't anywhere I know, that's unknown

Like the seams of a jacket, become unsewn

Rather than left in the water, I'm like a stone unthrown

 

 

Could this just be,a form of vanity

But don't get me wrong, It's me I'm glad to be

Its just I haven't seen, any humanity

And it don't seem, It's gonna magically happen to me

 

 

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So vain it's like it runs through my veins

Looking skinny since the addiction kicked in

Another day where i forgot to eat dinner again