I tried

 

Hey listen,

For the ladies and gentleman out there listening to this shit right now

I'm no god, I tired my best, you know?

I tired my best to not be depressed

But it seems the harder that I try

The more it backfires on me

Like my parents teaching me to be a happy child

Full of wonder and delight for our planet earth

Yet it seems the darkness has taken over the light

I might as well just try to kill myself now Right?

Load the gun and just play some Russian Roulette

Starting to question my life and its existence

What is the meaning of life? I keep asking

They be deceiving and bullying me to my grave

These voices in my head keep speaking to me

Telling I should be dead and I'll never find love

Jesus please remove these demons from my soul

Who take control of me and use me like a remote control

Dear God, I just trying to stay afloat and waiting for the antidote

I'm hoping one day someone will devote the love I really need

All my life I've been flirting just have a real friend

And to find the one just for me

Some people only show some love just for lust

Well do you really want me? or do you just want my attention?

And then use me like i'm your doll

However, if your putting an effort and trying your best to help me stay happy

Why don't you take my fall to my grave?

I'm also asking Why i'm not even loved or appreciated

I'm just trying to be myself, but my mindset is just negative

like people to trying beat themselves up

But it's time to rub off the makeup I've hiding behind like closed doors

And just tell em I'd rather be dead than live the rest of my life depressed