Sick and Suffering { Feat Kaze }

Goodbye Mother

Goodbye Father and lil Brother

Its time We parted ways

But as always I love you

A Knife in hand an Empty bottle 2 ways I've Imagined it happenin

I try to speak its jus me babblin

It Hurts its Just I dont know how it can be worded

I wonder if I spoke sooner would anyone had heard it?

My mental anguish is handin me this death verdict

People think Im fine just because my life looked perfect

I'll soon be another Carcass for the vultures an Birds to peck

No Respawn or chance to resurrect

They Don't care they jus wanna be politically correct

While Depression and Anxiety got me swervin

To where im far away from direct

Now I'm goin 90 these pills are gonna get me wrecked

I'm another body for the Grim to Collect

Im In Airplane mode But its time to Face Time

Me God and the Devil Can't Connect

Earth is a livin Purgatory Half of us chasin Glory

The other half tryin to live to tell a story

Mines gonna be one thats ended shortly

Yeah We are the sick and Suffering

We study self pain like Astronomers with stars observing

Its Clear we hurting

No one seems to care about the Sick and Suffering

I've lived so long in pain, so long I had to witness me suffer in this agony

I just wanna leave and don't give a fuck about this evil place anymore

I can't believe suicide is on my fucking mind, but I guess it's time to finally die

Bury me inside a casket, people acting like they miss me but deep inside they are

Fucking happy, you see I saw so much dishonesty that I I lost faith in humanity

Love is like money a fucking whore it comes then it goes, im on the edge I wanna slit

My wrist and end this shit, but nah you all wouldn't understand

I had friends but they've turned into enimes, I had a family and now they've

Turned into strangers, this is a sick place this fucking earth

Why was I even born so I could witness so much harm, everyday

Drinking henny to forget about the old memories, rolling pure joints

To be high like a motherfucker to stop seeing this reality,

Maybe when I'll be gone y'all will start to think about me,

Knowing that you lost me and I'll never be back

Yeah We are the sick and Suffering

We study self pain like Astronomers with stars observing

Its Clear we hurting

No one seems to care about the Sick and Suffering

Its been the longest time Sunlights faded black

Another 40 outta the empty pack

They Call me insane for tryin to be caring

Now Im staring outta 3rd story window

They say savor small victories but nothin in my lifes a win though

I sneak my head out I can feel the cold wind and snow

I can feel a hand and a voice sayin no

Sayin Don´t go

If you died the whole family would suffer a low blow

Time freezes memories flash slow

Those times we´ll never have again

But to hell I shall self condemn

Now I must put down this damned pen

This is my Final Note

I love ya´ll End Quote

Yeah We are the sick and Suffering

We study self pain like Astronomers with stars observing

Its Clear we hurting

No one seems to care about the Sick and Suffering

Some days are starting to be darker then the night,

Suicide thoughts in my mind are exploding like dynamite

Please god give me mercy, I'm hopeless wondering in this tunnel of darkness

My fucking life is such an mess, no understatement from every side

Only people taking to me about success, but not anymore when I'm

Dead I won't be there anymore to impress, no more anxiety and stress

Sorry momma that I've chosen to end my life I know it's a sin and god won't accept it

I don't care going to hell when I'm already living in it,

Its just so crazy when we all were kids life was colorful but now it's just grey

Filled with misery and pain, I know I've already lost this game

but I was never aiming to win it, I've lost many times then this time won't even

Have a meaning, for those that hated me you can be now happy knowing that you

Wished death upon me.