how i feel

im the one intelligent individual not to crumble

under the weight of years of violent acts delt upon the world by the other untamed

person dwelling inside me

 

i go to my therapist and he allways ask me the same question when i first step in

"hello luca how do you feel"and i normally reply

 

how i feel i feel like im being bullied beat up,threw to the ground,given a noogie

the world chew you up,and spit you back out cuz your not good enough

tell me when my hood is up

pull it tight and cover my head to keep the boogies out how i feel im untamed

could never be tamed even if maimed threw up in the fire pit in maine

its just a shame how i will remaim i'm the phantom at your bed side table

knocking vases over give shoutout to jaira lil cam that white boy sam how do i feel

how do you feel look inside my brain and take the deal a meal for a meal

a kill for a kill i just can't sit still

insane people like I DEMENTED AND RIPPED OF OUR PRIDE

come to people like you wishing they could die oh what a suprise your suprised

does it hurt your eyes to see the pain in mines oh how about a cup of coffie doc.

it just my num the pain then you can say the lies just like jaira lied

she told me i'm not crazy demented and lazy i'm too lazy to be lazy so i get up and shout

shout at the top of my lungs how do i feel im a mine field how ya' mind feel

it feels how mine feels thats a lie you do your mind drills go get your mind drill

your a therapist huh look in my eyes phil what do you see a small vision of dee

the old me he's dead i stabbed when he was in his bed ripped off his arms

and cut off his legs cut up his fingers and burned off his head how i feel

i feel like a monster but i like it i'm crazy i'm a viking living a life of mind games

let me tell ya sum doc you now in my game and my game is a crazy mind game

its too late for mind change its my turn i'm a mind king how i feel im sober

but i don't feel sober i think my minds over i broke it i stepped the line over

im a kind older smashed with the mind bolder im luca jones im playin mind poker