If I die

I don’t really give a fuck about my life anymore

I’d rather just die today instead of feeling sore.

I’m tired of the bullshit that just never goes away

Why do I keep doing this, right now there is no escape

Why do I keep the standards so high?

I want to succeed but at same time I don’t

I just wanna feel good but life is passing me by

 

I just say fuck it it’s over

Fuck it’s over

 

I don’t want it to be over but it’s the only thing I want

I wanna do what I want but I’m called to be someone else

I contradict this shit because I’m torn between myself

Being different, at the stage of adolescence is just frustrating

I wanna follow but I don’t it’s just so irritating

Who gives a shit about my life I know they really don’t

I’m always on the move when can I just go home

Does she want me around probably not

But I think that she’s

all I got

Who is she? I already forgot

Sigh

You see just a sad person who just wants what he wants

But my code forbids me, I already hear the taunts

Lost boy

I don’t know anymore

 

I just say fuck it it’s over

Fuck it it’s over

 

I need to complete my needs but at the same time I can’t

Can I just get a little instead of the back hand

If I die today I think I’ll be ok

I lived another day so I’m just gonna leave

Nobody will notice, just go on without me

All I’ve done is fucked up time and time again

Maybe now this is when I’ll see a brighter end

If I die today, i hope you know that I tried

I know you’ll be disappointed while you sink into your hands to cry

You might think this shouldn’t have happened

But what you don’t understand is I’m only human

I make mistakes but you were too blind to see it

You only saw results you wanted never considered what I needed

I gave it my all now I just wanna fucking die

I lived my 20 years for me I am satisfied.

So if you need to talk to me here’s how you’ll find me

I don’t wanna suffer. I wanna leave feeling good

I’ll do a lot shit that I know you’ll probably never would

On my final day, follow the bottles and the lingerie

If I could give you something to calm your nerves then maybe I will stay

I’m just tired of it all let me go astray

I’m a piece a shit don’t worry I’ll be gone soon

It’s too late to ask me what I’ve gone through

You might think that I’m weak but you and I are not the same

If you go without me don’t worry I’ll remember your name

I’m proud you have the strength to go on another day

When I was born I’d knew it be a hell of ride

If only they knew of the shit I carry inside

If I die today just let me slip away