WHY NOW

 

I Hate how i feel fuck him don't smoke and drive

I hate me and life, i do this cuz i need to spend time with y'all

Don't call my phone when they plate is ready to be served

Ice shape in my heart u won't understand so fucking depressed

Very emotional i don't show up tryna keep it all till it ends

Mood swings got me when writing this i just switch bars

Got scars and keep cuts ain't showing tired holding up

If this drug gotta take a life what bout all the overdosing

Fuck am soo stressed my head a dark place am floating

Ain't smoking fingers itching the darkness is where to find me

Sitting alone so paranoid can't even trust

Relationship with lust never touched my heart

Told me u love me and shit but wasn't ready now

Can't allow no one in spitting from my emotions

Thoughts in my head can't get out with motions

Memories like a chip lost mine but can remember only a few

Can't remember that's an error can't be myself no treasure

Get up from your knees don't need pleasure

Where are the friends who said to stay forever

Lost letter few words i just can't remember none

Words really hurts actions speaks but not more than traumatized

Not listening to people who aren't able to do what needs to be done

You only miss me when am around but wish me a bye forever when am gone