Memorable Pain

Losin FAM to da streets

one after uh nuther covered in sheets

chasin that high

no time to say goodbye

can't hang up the street life

streets runnin through thur veins

gripping tight onto the reins

shackled in chains

holding onto memories we once shared

when they once cared

there's nothing more I can do but, to let em go

pray they find thur way

pray all the shit I say

maybe one day

they'll open their eyes

see more than their children's cries

see the pain in their eyes

there's more to life than is realized

trust I feel your pain

no exactly where you came

blocked out many years

just like they were never there

have no happy memories to share

mine all became uh nightmare

wouldn't know what it's like to live life

any different than I did

as uh kid

did what u did to get by

FAM too busy getting drunk n high

couldn't understand why

couldn't comprehend the full extent

to what an addict really meant

violence in the home

nobody to talk to on the phone

felt all alone

I had so much anger, hate, n rage in me

built up inside of me

ready to be released

unleashed

path of destruction

many years of no recollection

never received recognition

they be to drunk to drive

me in the seat behind

tryin to decide who was less drunk to get behind the wheel

guess my life didn't matter fo real

my life was no big deal

was never shown any love

had to force myself to give em uh kiss n uh hug

turned to the streets as uh thug

anything illegal I was doing

wasn't using

I know it's uh little confusing

all this anger, hate, n rage began to show

it was me they sent if you owed

this is far as I'll go

still have to abide by code

some thangs just can't be told

so here I was doing just uh little over three

for some shit that didn't need to be

with all honesty

thangs could've turned out more seriously

coulda been doin life

instead I am free

still working on me

and you thought you knew me