A Hot Mess (Emphasis On Hot)

Once again I'm gone so here I go, I got no time to try and stop the show,

Once more shit has gone down below, but I've got no time to try and take it slow,

Now I gotta keep on, walking, forth, now I gotta get out, of the cold north,

'way from home and the memories, might be good to just feel that breeze,

Coming down from the mountain range, maybe even motivate me to change,

But without you it all seems so blue, finding it hard to just continue, even when I try to view,

(PaUsE)

View it all from another perspective, seems my actions need to be corrective,

So my new goal is to give. (pAuSe)

 

(During Instrumental)

Even if I'm gone again, your actions I will not condemn,

Hopefully it's time well spent, maybe I can just repent,

For my actions and mistakes, hopefully soon there'll be more dates,

Preferably with sushi 'cuz that shit's great,

Then maybe we can stay up late.

 

(On beat again)

Truly believe you were meant for me,

Just look at how my family,

Acted when they met you, even though you were new, seemed I didn't have any clue, (PaUsE)

Just how fast and far I would fall, girl you make me wanna have it all,

Two story house with a tall bookshelf as we save all the wealth in sickness and in health,

'Till death do us part while we lay in the dark and hear the dogs bark, lay claim to your heart, man I can't wait for that to start, (pAuSe)

That's still the goal, so I'll stay on patrol as I try to control,

My downward directed emotional spiral, but hey at least I'm not suicidal,

In the mean time I'll just be there for you, stay by your side and try to see it through,

Haven't changed much yeah that could be true, but each and every day I'm becoming brand new,

Second night now I've written' bout you, guess my brain stuck on K like glue,

Probably got a few more loose screws, but hey at least I ain't gone to booze,

Family history of substance abuse, maybe I should start using cranberry juice,

Something addictive that's actually healthy, sorry that this song had to be so heavy,

Just tends to happen when I get on the pad, something about it just seems real sad,

I don't think I could be more glad than in the chat that you sent me a pic of you lookin' just like a snack,

Whole situation got me going like "Whack",

Just like a meme of a seagull I scream with my low self esteem and a buncha day dreams,

Going to extremes on the daily lately and it's crazy but at least this morning it was rainy,

Only downside of the rain is my brain, getting me goin' and thinkin' of K, everday, and how she's away, man I hope she's okay.

 

(PaUsEtill the high hats come back)

Lord knows I miss you more than anything else, but I also understand this is all for your health,

I wouldn't want it to be any other way, but sometimes I wish you would text me and say,

That I'm working and you see it and you know that it's hard,

I know the whole ordeal has left you pretty scarred, whole heart barred,

So for now we're apart while you guard your heart and I write this art in part with my heart and in part with my soul,

I just want you to know that you are still my whole goal. (pAuSe till the high hats and bass go away)

 

(Spoken Word Time)

Also I miss you. And I love you. Thicc thigh havin', bedhead wearin', total badass bein', drop dead gorgeous lookin' s n a c k