fim all alone goddamnit

im lost an will never be found

nothing can find me not even a hound

camaflouged with the things I surround

but im in plain view like a pitcher on the mound

but they still don't see me

all anybody care about today is money

im struggling with anxiety

all while questioning my sanity

in my mind its never sunny

its all lemon no honey

my head is full of dark thoughts

there are no afterthoughts

muhfaker hating

while I am here creating

in public im happy but you can tell im faking

its 100 degrees yet im shaking

im just waiting for someone to thing im amzing

my parents dont count but it doesn't matter anyway

my eyes are filled with tears as if I was sprayed by pepper spray

why does everyone call me gay

im not think of a better insult

they say its mind over matter

but that's only the first chapter

bitch your not a ganster

you tried and I turned into a disaster

my body so full of this anger

bitch stop saying you are swagger

i biting my lip to hide the laughter

but it spills out

why was born with autism

why was I the fucking victim

im fourteen

i hate life im about to scream

im the only one on my team

and you wonder why i have low self esteem

im the king but there will never be a queen

im all alone

im never gonna be grown

im dieying instide, all the way down to the bone

but some day i sit on this godamn throne