9: At the speed of time(unrecorded)

I wish that time was faster #as beat kicks in#

My mind has gone to shit

Find it hard to muster laughter

My anxiety's a bitch

 

I wonder why i carry on

what do i have to lose

if it wasnt for my mum

i wouldve took a litte cruise

 

im a man with two faces

cause ive had to stay strong

ive been to some dark places

and still a shoulder for my mum

 

this is a peak into my mind

a broken man it seems

that the answers that i find

are always wrapped up in my dreams

 

It really hurts to be alone

So I always mute the pain with weed

Whats my new cologne?

i call it aux de press and trees

 

i know im about to break

translate it into anger

i make a new mistake i know

my demons arent the answer

 

the cancer on my mind

it really eats away my grind

the ladders i have climbed

will get washed away in time

 

i thought i had control

but that is not the case

my mind is like a snowball

bout to rumble up the place

 

 

 

how murky is my mind #with melody#

im losing, time

 

how murky is my mind

im losing time

demoralized-

why am i going blind

 

 

 

i cant believe its me thats, holding me back

snap back, to sat whacked, in some gaff, its not that

its the fact that i had smarts

i had enough to be somebody

~note ts~

it was my dream to work on cars #change this bar#

why did it turn into a hobby

and i couldve worked in graphics

but someone had to get cocky

 

all this time that i have wasted

just want my life to move forward

but i just blazed up all my grind

how many dreams my mind get bored with

 

This wasnt what i came from

is this the life that i have chose

i was raised good by my mum

i always had a family home

 

All these chances i have had

its just another episode

i really took after my dad

how'd i end up on the road

 

how'd i end up in a trap

couple dinners in a bowl

bout a rack on my lap

no my money wouldnt fold

 

but it aint worth getting whacked

or getting locked in a pad

for 7 laps with the lads

i had to walk a new path

 

 

 

how murky is my mind

im losing, time

 

how murky is my mind

im losing time

demoralized-

why am i going blind

 

 

 

I wish that time was faster

My mind has gone to shit

Find it hard to muster laughter

My anxiety's a bitch

 

I wonder why i carry on

what do i have to lose

if it wasnt for my mum

i wouldve took a little cruise

 

im a man with two faces

cause ive had to stay strong

ive been to some dark places

and still a shoulder for my mum

 

this is a peak into my mind

a broken man it seems

that the answers that i find

are always wrapped up in my dreams

 

It really hurts to be alone

So I always mute the pain with weed

Whats my new cologne?

i call it aux de press and trees

 

i know im about to break

translate it into anger

i make a new mistake i know

my demons arent the answer

 

the cancer on my mind

it really eats away my grind

the ladders i have climbed

will get washed away in time

 

i thought i had control

but that is not the case

my mind is like a snowball

bout to rumble up the place

 

 

 

sometimes i look back in my life

i look at how i used to be

sometimes it seems that person died

and that the shell thats left is me

 

i used to be the funny one

that always liked to laugh

wasnt bothered about opinions

catch me toking on some grams

 

its like

where has my confidence gone

its there but my diffidence is prominent

intolerant to criticism

gotta moderate my indecision

 

but right now im on another misson

 

have to put my addictions in remission

my ambitions in transition-

my intuition says

that we can only learn with repetition

 

we can only learn with repetition

 

if not im, im gonna insane

or in prison, in this edition of

a fuckin buildup to a catacylsm, my vision

in fruition is a couple decompositions with volition

 

decomposition with volition

 

Every lyric that i write

Is like a demon locked inside but

4 chains to the walls aint

enough to keep me tied

 

i was destined to survive

my mind is merely tempered

everything ive ever lived

will only help to keep me centered

 

 

 

how murky is my mind

im losing time

demoralized-

why am i going blind

 

how merky is my mind

im losing, time

 

how merky is my mind

im losing time

demoralized-

why am i going blind

 

One second of stress #with meldody#

is a second less laughter

if it dont kill you

it makes you stronger

At the speed of time

It'll never go faster

#fadeout#