Whats it like

Yeah, I know you don't know me but this is my story

I'm still a kid I'm still learning and growing, I'm in high school

I'm surrounded by all these fools tryna act cool

Ain't nobody know my name, I'm in the quiet kid in the corner

I may have a few friends but that doesn't mean they really know me

I'm growing up gay and afraid that my dad will hate me

Every day I'm afraid to even wake up

I'm sad, ain't no coming back

I'm in a dark place I cannot escape think I'm going crazy

I've been without a mother since I can remember never really remembered

I've felt alone all my life and I'm losing all reason to complete the fight

I hate the way I look I just wanna fucking die

I don't even think anyone really loves me

Think you can get to me and hurt my feelings?

I already hurt my own, all these scars are starting to show

I've been sad since I can remember, I don't know who I am anymore

I just wanna fucking die, leave me alone here tonight

I'll be dead by the morning, I don't think I'm going to heaven yeah I'm hell bound

All my dreams never mean one thing, I'm only having nightmares

I can't escape this mess I created

What's it like to be happy huh?

What's it like to smile and laugh every day huh?

What's it like to feel loved huh?

Can someone please explain I don't understand?

I've been alone for all I can remember, and I'm losing myself to the demons inside my head

Their winning this battle, Its one I cannot handle

So live me while I'm here today cause I might be gone by tommorow

I wish I could feel alive, but I'm dead ain't no emotion inside my head

I fake every laugh and smile that comes inside my head,

Please dont try to make me stay its eating me alive

I dont wanna be alive, just please let me die