Declining

I tend to wonder, mind on a runner

When I ponder, find what I don't wanna

Why do I feel so out of this land

Alienated but still stuck in a can

Losing my mind, stuck on the grind, then I'm

Falling so fast, slipping down the decline

Staring at myself, I don't really know mine

When I'm feeling low all I do is rhyme

It's a battle in my head taking all of my time

It's crossed the line, "oh I'm fine", I say

On a daily repeat, y'all ain't so sweet

You wouldn't walk a step in my shoes

All you do is talk, about how I LOSE

But everything you do deepens the bruise

So I slip further faster down the decline

Searching for something I cannot find.

 

In a ruck, break the law

Slipped up, now I fall

Uh oh, I dropped the ball

Feeling stuck, as I fall

My mind's messed up, it's a brawl

It's a one man free for all

Headed down the decline

I know I lost my mind

 

 

It's creeping on me, evil tendency

It's leeching of me, down another Hennessey

Maybe kill it with my rhymes

Or kill it with habits that waste a lot of dimes

It's menacing, when I stare at the mirror

He just laughs at me, It's a catastrophe

Taking a knife he grabs and jabs at me

Now I bleed, now I plead that one day these feelings will be far from me

He still laughs at me, kicks me down

Falling further and faster, reaching for something more on the decline

 

In a ruck, break the law

Slipped up, now I fall

Uh oh, I dropped the ball

Feeling stuck, as I fall

My mind's messed up, it's a brawl

It's a one man free for all

Headed down the decline

I know I lost my mind

 

I'm gonna jump on this verse

Before I end in a hearse

Even when I rehearse a confrontation with the devil

I lose it to intimidation I'm not on that level

Left with all this frustration, built up rage

Stuck sitting station, trapped in a cage

Kicked onto a stage

I look out to the crowd, but there's no one around

Still the pressure is on, but I'm not that strong

It ends in combustion; now I'm on fire with this lyric

But no ones left to hear it

Because I got left behind, when I slipped

and hit the bottom of this decline.

 

In a ruck, break the law

Slipped up, now I fall

Uh oh, I dropped the ball

Feeling stuck, as I fall

My mind's messed up, it's a brawl

It's a one man free for all

Headed down the decline

I know I lost my mind

 

In the end I'm lost

Second guessed choices

What did it cost?

Overrun by darker voices

They stole my mind

Instead of over doses

Tried to mange this psychosis

It really is my own fault

But what's not is you never tried to consult me

So I'm free, not really.

I'm free falling, nothing more to define

Just me stuck, on the decline