I Want to Go Away

I'm writing this song to myself today

I'm saying NO to YESterday

won't go away, these thoughts won't let me sleep

i lie awake, all night dozed away in highs

i miss the days, when you'd tell me you'd go cra'y

if i ever go away, now you're okay

say the love we had i will find nowhere again

in no way, quo malus est // (means "that's too bad")

i thought Champagne would wash away the stain

off my brain, and the pain that's driving me insane

should have known better cuz i still got two cans remaining

two emptied down inside are now lying on the side table

and i still have this pen in one hand,

another holding Mary Jane

sometimes i wonder if the days are going by,

or is it the same day repeating over and over again

you know i loved you, you said that you care

now i don't get it; if that was a lie

or you got someone else to lye with you in your bed

or, was it you disguised as someone else

i need to sleep and don't wake up again

can't see you with him holding his hand

I'm waiting on death, on my last breath

when i take it and it takes away the pain

i want to go away!