Neurodiverse

We aren’t all the same

Just because we have different brains doesn’t mean we all have to drive in the same lane

 

Some like the rain more than the sun

It would be boring if all of us were one culture, colour or race

We’re all from a different place

It’s a blessing, not a disgrace

 

Some wanna follow the herd

and be pretending their true colour just to blend in with a brother from another mother

when really they suffer

It’s too much effort but we still walk on hot coals bare foot And say I’m fine

When really some with autism like me or even neuro typicals will be hurting inside

Because they try to hide or can’t get support no matter how much they fought for it

And that system I was in I was caught in it

Not diagnosed, not told, not official, I didn’t know what I thought of it

Like the only lamb who couldn’t relate

So I went to sit on my own

Because the herd didn’t know why I was different to their mates

I was alone

No one felt like home

I was on my phone

Trying to get away

All the noise

all the people got me anxious

It was lethal for my peace of mind

I was trying to find a quiet place

where I’d relax

Back of the class

until at last

I got the help that I needed

so hard to get because

I was quiet and never pleaded

 

I was masked

Such a task to get the help

But it got me far from my low

Now I’m high where my soul glows

Like a new tomorrow

Started to understand my mind

Shared my problems with family

and to those who I could trust

to borrow so my sorrow could be halved and solved until they’re left in the dust

And As time went by it got easier

Not just with friends but with family

It pleases ya

Cause If you wanna be left

They understand to be leaving ya

And how they could be treating ya

Unlike when they seemed to be mean to ya

It’s a dream to ya and everybody around

When Before it was Like a weight

hard to carry that was lost then found

here but not

Just be thankful for what you’ve got

Because life is short

Want the cold when it’s hot

But the hot when it’s cold

Bite the hand that feeds you

when there’s someone to hold

But cry when they leave you

So don’t wish your life away

Imagine the golden memories you’d miss

There’s no way of a second chance at this

You gotta take every shot that you got

don’t let any opportunities be wasted

or go to pot

 

Because who you are now

is not the person you will be

Things change

They come and go

Like the tide of a sea

Each wave has their own direction

Like the path you take in life

Just be who you wanna be

Don’t compare yourself to anyone or me

Compare yourself to you

See what you need to improve of yourself

from the day before

You’re not the only one with a few flaws

We all have strengths

Like a sprinter can’t run long lengths

But when you’re made to

Do your best

Because what doesn’t kill you makes what’s in your chest stronger so you can run longer

So when I start to ponder or spiral

I stick to my rule

Telling myself just do it

To then surprising me

Standing tall cause I pushed through it

Thinking who knew it

I could do it

When at first I thought screw it

To not bother, progress or experience

All of my positives of feeling this

But lose it

Would’ve been the worst choice I’d ever make

Like giving up music