Recovery

I guess it all begins with pain, that’s where everything goes down.

Right from the start, when everything goes dark, everything inside me gets hard to contain

I’ll sit there in silence with all my broken parts, and with my demons I attempt to tame

Love is worse than any drug we could ever take, addiction too strong to refrain or ever numb away

We try to brush it off and ignore emotion so we can’t be the one to blame

We become immune to all the hate with every oz of it that flows through our veins

I know it ain’t easy n you may feel kinda scared but I’m proud of you for getting prepared

Even tho you may be skeptical on this new road you face

I’m so glad you came, go your own pace it’s never a race

Land of the broken and home of the shamed

This life we have claimed leaves us drained, pained and chained

Begging for mercy and admitting defeat is the first step towards reaching this mountain so steep

No more excuses or hiding our face, it’s time we take charge and begin this needed change

Tear out the page, and get out of this space, it’s time we grow up and get on our way

Get our priorities straight, new responsibilities and habits we must create

No more dollar store dreams that leave us torn at the seams

No more holding it in trying to muffle our screams

Taking those steps might seem kinda sour, but we must remain strong

leaving all faith to our higher power

With veins of a fiend, making it hard to believe that maybe we too can one day be free

These moments of pain, we must endure first in order to explain

That the goals we are striving for need to be learned and maintained

No more running and hiding, we must face all our tragedies

Preserving our humanity, that we’ve taken from all these calamities

We can’t ever win until we sin and give in

Hitting rock bottom is a necessity to finding the strength that’s within

We must be willing to sacrifice, cut ties and we need to let go

We need these for focus, so we have more room to grow

Please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change

The remedy for courage to change what I can

And wisdom to know the difference so I may accordingly plan

I leave with you this prayer in order to finally repair

The ways of my past no longer left to rot in despair