Almost Died this one Time

I was once convinced to exit on a Rainy Day,

"Mom I'm just going out to run" I Plainly Say,

Grab my bag with no intention of Fading Away,

I wanted to kick it with homies, the Pain would Stay,

Because with friends my Dome would Roam to an Elevated State,

To the point that we became what we Craved and Aimed Toward,

But on that Day our Name's Lowered,

Because our main homie had a new Game For Us,

Only appropriate time for me to Await the Chorus,

For the Way they Sure Trust,

But the Weight's Enormous,

I felt like I was supposed to be with the Gang on the Short Bus,

I take a hit and hear a Train then the Floor Busts,

I felt as if I was Strange Tourist who Came with a Torn Wrist in a Feign Forest,

My legs may break from one of the Main Forces,

Magical Entities start to manifest as I Take Doses,

Actual Serenity I achieve through Plain Gnosis,

As the rain patters I begin to Realize my Deranged Focus,

I was caught with a sickness Vain's Explodin

The coldness numbed my soul and I waited as my Grave Approached It,

I was one with death in this realm of Hate and Abhorrent Lust,

Accepted my Fate to Lay in this Cage Dormant Shushed

A Sage's Torment that Delayed the Torrent's Abrupt Eruption,

I couldn't heal with Corrupted Functions,

Sealed Shut in Untouched Dungeons,

So Much trash I had to Munch I was in a Rough Junction,

There I faced my true Cuts and Punches,

Questioned whether or not I had done Enough Lunges,

And compared it to what I had done being a Mutt Bustin,

Was I just waiting to be Shot Up and Busted?

So I decided from then on I was to Toughen Up and Judge With,

Unrealistic expectations so there was never a Stunt UnConfronted,