My Story

I don't think I've said what I've been through

I grew up as a child wanting to be cool

Life was amazing in the beginning

But then the demons started winning

Mom & dad both had an addiction

Every night they'd argue in the kitchen

It's crazy how shit changes as a child thinking of familiar places

It's not an amazing wonderland

Sometimes i wonder man will they ever stop?

Can't they just knock it off before one of their heads pop off?

In August of 08 is when they gave up

Mom put up the white flag then kicked him out

She couldn't let go of the pills and him the alcohol

They probably don't even remember it all

Sometimes i wonder could it have been different?

Shit I'm going fucking insane thinking about the memories

The shit was painful for me to see my parents would agree

My sister had seen part of the madness

She's only 9 now, her mind just sometimes completely crashes

I wonder if my soul will last but everyone's life is fucked because of the aftermath

I gotta find my own path get out of here

And life is one thing i can no longer fear

Put my body in gear & take off to the place of...

Paradise

If y'all think you know me try to walk in my shoes

Nevermind don't cause you'd kill yourself over the fact you're in em'

Uh, I'm sinful and I've got a crateful of

Rhymes and God you know i am grateful cause of my skill on this damn mic

I wake up with body pain trying to write a decent rap

While other teens choose to sit on their ass and start to fap

But to hell with that i got goals i need to achieve

Grandma passed in 09

She was my favorite person but it's just the luck of mine

Shit started changing

Mom saw my changes & wanted to have changes

Me and her sat to talk & i told her about my depressed condition

I saw her smash and throw away all of those pills in the kitchen

She had to change her direction & switch positions

She wanted to make life better for her & her children

In 2011 my brother was born i was almost 11 but i had sworn I'd fight for them

I hate the other kids i won't turn out like them

For some reason mom couldn't keep her promise she got back on em'

Passed out on the couch fucking snoring loud

I had to be the one there for my siblings now

Matthew and Makenzie i was their parents now

Treated them like my own kids

The world said i couldn't do it they probably wish they wouldn't have said that shit

Because i proved em' all wrong

I understand kids go through the hard sometimes that's why i wrote this song

It wasn't very long till she finally sobered up

And my thoughts they rushed

So i started rapping in my notebooks explaining my story

Sometimes my rhymes are stupid and corny

But oh well let me be myself good lordy

Mom gave Matthews dad custody of him to go through withdrawals

But found out my moms condition and kept matthew away for so long

That was my bestfriend man and now he's gone

Fuck his faggot ass daddy I'll kill him then stab his mom shoot his bitch ass father

Murder his sisters aunts uncles cousins and anyone else who tries too stop me

Let these bitches keep my brother away from me any longer

C'mon pussy just try me

 

Y'all wanna be slick huh?

Try to fuck up my life?

Just wait bitch

Imma make your life a living hell just like you did me

Motherfuckers

Hahaha