Apology
• Written by DenniC
DenniC's Notes
To my mother of coarse, confessing all the very wrong and immoral things I've done she doesn't know and getting in trouble all the time. Just want her to know it isn't her fault i went down that path and i still love her, that she knows she did her job as a mother.
Intro,Hook, and Outro are all singing, picture someone with an emotional voice like Usher or Ne-Yo singing.
Line:"seeing memories i miss, and the memories i would miss" = i think back on good times that i miss, and i see memories that i won't get to experience due to my actions while i fall down the endless abyss.
(Intro:Singing)
Mom, i wish i can take away the pain i caused,
and even though you try and, continue to be proud
but inside, i know it kills you to know the sins of me.
Mom, i know the damage on you is all my fault,
no need to blame yourself, you can let ya shame out
its all me, no need to pretend your happy with me, and...
[CHORUS:Singing]
we can't change the mistakes we made, but please,
there's no one else you can blame, but me,
i just hope our love still remains, I'm sorry...
I needa admit that I did some shit that i thought I'll never commit
what i had to submit was worth more then any autograph or outfit
something your only born with, thought it was nothing but it was a promise
i done made myself blood brothers with some others others felt uncomfortable with
didn't even think twice of affiliating myself with the individuals in this.
It was dumb, but i felt forever young becoming afraid of the light
living in the dark, it started with a walk from the park out at night.
I forgot about family, cuz it took my focus off of what i saw as adversities
but in the end was the closest thing to me, how could I, thinking this was me.
Now I've lost myself, facing the mirror glass, but all i faced was some mask
and now I'm trying to find what was me, runnin' into my past and empty paths
while on this egg hunt i thought was a paper chase, turned out to be the world's edge
looking down the ledge to life's end it hit me, what my axe did to my family tree... so I stepped...
[CHORUS]
Going down into the abyss, my head spins and i reminisce
seeing memories i miss, and the memories i would miss
I'm stretching trying grab the ones in grasp, birthdays, funerals, and my future children
all the possibilities that could happen in a man's existence I've been forgetting
marriage, graduation, all this will never get to happen if i went with my mistakes 'n
the one i really hurt, my momma got it the worst,
and this is what would occur if i haven't turned,
imagine her face and feelings if she knew my sins 'n all after confession
Ma, i can't live with my self knowing the damage you have to hold, process, 'n
live with this weight I've thrown upon ya, this isn't the child you pictured walking the altar.
but don't bother blaming this on father, none of this is his fault neither mother
looking at the street wandering if i should go back 'n, it was you that kept from crossing over
i just hope that this can take some of that weight off your shoulder
the way you would worry when i wasn't home, I'm just glad you lived through those dark parts
and i know for you the hardest part was letting me out your arms,
fixing my sleeves, shifting ya life for me, and the grief you grieved due to me
getting all those calls 'bout me, you never wished for a better son, your love for me,
stayed satisfied with the son you conceived and still had time to love another three.
I just love how you never lost your pride for me, and the same goes for you Ma
so i just wanted you to know...
[CHORUS]
We can't change the mistakes we made, but please,
there's no one else you can blame, but me,
i just hope our love still remains, I'm sorry...
(OUTRO)
Mother I'm sorry for all my mistakes,
but I don't regret the decisions I made.
Because I would never have learned thee
the man that i have turned to be.
I have no remorse for the decisions in school
thats the reason i have this image of you.
And if i am the one who has to leave first
i hope you know, that you've done your part
and none of this was never your fault.
[CHORUS]
It was never your fault...
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DenniC
Member since October 14 2013