The Last Note

I remember back when my loved one said its gonna be ok,

she told me she didn't want me to go but I couldn't explain why I didn't want to stay,

she got upset she would cry,

the next morning came the only word spoken was hi.

we couldn't talk we couldn't bond,

I text her saying sorry she took an hour to respond.

one month in our relationship was down,

thought I would never see her again but then she came around.

 

back in a relationship nothing changed,

this love was so deranged.

went to get tested for my thoughts,

I told them all about my walks.

the ones where I didn't want to go home i cant deal with the pain,

every time the blade hits my wrist i bow my head in shame.

 

I started writing songs raps rhymes,

the feelings were still there they came multiple times.

the writing turned to notes one by one they got wrote,

this was it my journey across the river taken on a suicide boat.

i wont live to see my 15th birthday,

in my bed that's where i lay.

taking the pills one by one,

think what if something went wrong.

what if it doesn't work what if kill me,

i took them anyway and lay there and fell asleep.

 

i made a big mistake my body began to float,

it suddenly struck i forgot to right my love one a note.

im sorry family im sorry friend,

im sorry that my life has to end.