Random Thought 1

What I do with the life given to me,

Decided by time since I was a kid, grown & seen

That fate is a factor affecting whether I live free

What mate I find and how we adjust to each

It all started with just a spiraling leaf

Fallen from a tree

Fallen from grace despite my gentle pace

Fallen from peace

So now all I do is adjust to the scene

Am I the director in my own movie

Or truth be just the standby crew

It doesn't matter what I do

It's all an uncertainty

How do we abide by these growing pains

I feel like a constricted rat tangled by an aimless fame

Everytime I walk in to this room or depicted cave

I feel the darkness of my hollowed shame

That all I can do in this body is build myself a grave

That grave better be comfy cause I've seen better days

Outside in this world we live in

People expect the best sympathy, especially from kin

It's all what we make it, and we made

A society separated by failure, damn it's so lame

That I must go to work always shaved

Take drugs to go to a rave

Or else I feel misplaced in this scene

Goddamn I've fallen far from grace

I was an angel and yet I came

To Earth searching for a brain

So I could understand what human's do and why they say

The meanest things to eachother

Why they crave pleasure and pain

To overcome the sense of loneliness, yet so they behave

And maybe I don't have a halo

Maybe I am supposed to waste this pay load

Of energy that I hold dear to my soul

It's all just a big spiral

Deep in side this dark cave I feel the cold

Better yet I miss the old days once told

Of a young kid who had the future ahead of him

Dreamt of success, cooler visions, he was crippin

He watched rugrats, had dope missions, was invicible

For the world before him was limitless, his sight was biblical

Once he fell he understood he was an imbecile

Everyone was a goddamn cynical

He felt isolated, broke as a criminal

There's still hope for the sensible though

As long as you keep true to yourself you'll never grow old

You'll stay young as life unfolds

Stay dark and lonely like coal

Maybe one day you'll become diamond somebody will hold