Tupacquiao - losing my mind! (NE...

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See my life’s been kind of dark.

I was in a special school a first.

It was because i had speach problems.

They killed my confidence forever.

It always made me hold back.

That’s why i used to be shy.

Then in high school.

A couple of dickheads had to take the piss.

“I don’t think I’ll ever forget this!”

(The police don’t understand these streets)

“You know nothing what we have to mofo’ go through”

(We need to target the law all y’all)

“Because ladies and gentlemen we simply just want out fucking freedom!”

(Aww I’m sorry all y’all...)

“I just had to fucking say it...!”

 

the school was ok.

Teachers made us get naked for a water fight.

Everybody was getting dressed.

Supposed i was different for being abit suspicious.

The teachers got me into sex at that point.

Wondering being cursious.

 

That was grange valley in haydock.

It was kind of fucked up.

Everyone kept asking me.

Like these twins.

“Why don’t you ever speak to me?”

Maybe it was because of my speach.

Wonder what happened to them.

I got moved schools sooner or later.

 

Had to find new friends.

I missed my old ones.

I was gangstered up at that school.

Standing up to every bully.

Just like my first day of primary.

Stood there like a mofo’ hero.

Even though i defended lewis back then.

We still never got along.

Fuck knows why.

Maybe people just thought of me all wrong.

 

The teachers couldn’t be bothered with me.

You know because i was mofo’ slow?

They just kept giving me a time out.

Sending me to sulk in the corner.

All embarrassed in front of the whole class.

It wasn’t all that bad though.

I kind of miss old shows like pippin.

What’s appended to the motivational ones all y’all?

 

By the time i moved schools.

My mum thought i knew someone called daniel.

He pulled a crazy face.

He wasn’t sure what she was on about.

Neither did i to be honest.

Kind of creeped us both out.

I made friends in the end.

After being useless so left out of every team.

Always picked last that just fucking depressed me homie.

 

High school was alienating.

I just got sick of seeing hoes my age or older in thomgs.

Loads of young girls that was pregnant and fucking everything.

Always doing shit they shouldn’t be doing.

It just turned my stomach and scarred me for life.

Being surrounded by loads of gangs.

It just wrecked my head cause’ it was clearly pathetic.

 

Getting into a gang myself.

I was always causing trouble.

The lads was sound at first.

Got slightly older.

Was only bothered about the sex.

Girls this girls that.

“THAT ISN’T EVEN FUCKING LOVE!”

It just scarred me even more.

So I stopped going out.

Also got sick of always fighting.

So I stayed in isolating myself away from the world.

“UNTIL FACEBOOK GOT ME INTO FUCKING ARGUING!”

 

My mind power was drained.

My confidence already left me at nursery.

So many problems during life.

Life just fucking hated and cursed me.

I fucking swear to all of you.

Nothing ever went right for me.

Nearly died multiple times by being clumsy.

Also a hurricane on holiday scarred me for life too.

I thought i wasn’t gonna wake up that next morning.

My speach, my hearing, my vision, spots in high school, fucking everything.

 

No girls ever bothered with me.

Thrmlads only cared about one thing.

The rest just caused trouble and crime.

Fuck knows about the rest apart from playing on games.

They just angered the army in the end all y'all.

I’m sorry for all the shit I’ve caused with the police back in high school.

I just wanted to show off to the girls but nothing happened anyway.

At the end of the day i still looked like a fucking fool.

 

Getting close to me, just to get closer to my friends back then.

That’s what it felt like, they just ended up being dickheads around the girls.

I hated that they’d changed, the girls letting it all happen.

They just wouldn’t listen to me, i tried my best to keep them out of sex.

Away from the alcohol, but obviously mofo’ no.

 

I fell for loads of them years ago.

Then it teard me apart watching loads of lads get with them.

Hearing different rumours.

I actually liked them for being themself.

They should’ve stuck to the hoes.

Being the nicer looking lads.

They got all of the fucking girls.

Here’s me alone.

Just always watching them kiss.

Whilst i was on my own.

 

I let them do anything they wanted.

I only kicked off and got strict when they did something wrong.

They wanted all there own way.

Fake profiles always messing with my head too.

Still trying to work out wich one of you.

I was off track back then.

That’s why it’s important to keep girls in place.

The nice ones get brainwashed into being a mofo’ hoe.

The bitches end up the nice ones.

That’s why you keep bitches in place too.

Make sure none of them turn into a mofo’ hoe.

I was heartbroken by every single one of you.

 

Can you imagine that?

Always heart broken.

It takes people years to get over one heart breaker.

This was beyond heart breaking.

It was every single day.

Always sat there crying.

Torn apart with a messed up head.

Mentally and emotionally damaged.

Always getting PURPOSLY wound up.

Do you know what that can do to a persons head?

“MWUHAHAHAHAHA It’s time for the millennials revenge now all y’all...!”

Fake profiles making me feel ugly and fucking everything.

 

My head was messed up.

Then it felt like it exploded.

My heart was aching.

Then it was scarred up to fuck.

All on my own with zero mofo’ help.

All y’all left me to fucking suffer.

You always let me down.

Backing out of things all of the time.

Wouldn’t do this or that.

Stuff like camping or whatever.

I prefer my own bed anyway at the end of the day.

 

All of those times i was crying.

My heart was breaking.

All you thought about was sex.

The alcohol pills or drugs.

Gangs always causing trouble or crime.

This wasn’t the type of life for me right?

My head was proper fucked up,

Do you understand the serious crime about this?

My head always hurting.

My heart always aching,

I was in too much pain and going through it all on my own.

Taking the world on including the haters all alone.

“I was Mentally wounded and damaged for life!”

(Now I’m simply just one of a kind)

“I was simply in major pain just losing maaaaa-miiiind!”